Taylor Swift'd It.

That's right. I'm making this blog post extremely personal. It's time I address how I feel about my past relationships. So ladies, let's talk ex's. (This only includes the boys who made it into either my "unmentionables" book or my AP-BIO sized boy book.)
*Clarification* although that book is huge, there are few males listed. It's mainly filled with memories, letters, Sawyer, etc.

The first ex that started it all goes to: (drumroll)

David. I count this as my first relationship because even though it began way back in middle school, it never really officially ended. (or received full closure until about...hmmm...June of this year.) That may come as a surprise to a few of you but like I mentioned earlier, this is honesty hour. And I'm telling you now that although we ended things officially a long time ago, I had always wondered "what if." Now that I know, I can honestly say that I'm "sooo over it." And because I've entitled this blog post "Taylor Swift'd It" I think it only appropriate that I dedicate one final song to each of the boys. So David, if you ever read this, here's my song to you. The Reason-Hoobastank
(I could have chosen a song about how I feel now that we're older but I'd rather think of you as the nice boy I fell in like with at a church dance.) 

The second ex I wish never had to be an "ex" goes to:

Sawyer. I have never loved anyone as much as I loved Sawyer. It's not even the fact that our relationship was perfect, because it wasn't. There was just something about the year and a half I spent with him that changed my life entirely. I went through some of the hardest times of my life with him. We were innocent, young, & so many other things that made our relationship so hard to get over. *Honesty Hour* It ended badly. And by badly I mean tragic. After 18 months of what to me seemed like a solid relationship, things happened. Parents got involved. Feelings got hurt. Communication was cut off as he was grounded from me several times. And eventually jealousy and hurt took over and I broke things off. A few months later he was dating my best friend. & My heart has never been the same. Nor has my relationship with said best friend. Although we haven't talked since the summer of 2010, I think about him all the time. He was my first love, and you know what they say about first loves....they're never forgotten. So Sawyer, even though I know you'll never read this or even think twice about the girl you once dated in high school, this is my song for & about you. Near to You-A Fine Frenzy
"He and I had something beautiful but so dysfunctional it couldn't last...Loved him so, but I let him go, cuz' i knew he'd never love me back. Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced. I'm still reeling from the loss, still a little bit delirious...."

The third ex (and the fourth and the fifth and the sixth and the seventh ex) goes to:

Easton. Boy oh' boy. We broke up so many times its unbelievable. And though our relationship lasted a long, long time, I was never the gal for you. I think we knew it way back when we were freshmen. You should never have to fight for the one you love, Easton. She should choose you first, not second. As we spent so many months apart, we were able to learn very important lessons that would help and prepare us for our future. They say that the people who enter into our lives are either a blessing or a lesson. I think you were both. You blessed me as I needed someone to lean on while my family went through some pretty intense times, and you helped me to learn what it is I truly want in a husband. So thanks, and I hope you have a wonderful and happy life. My song for you is Perfectly-By Chelsea Lee

That's it guys. Three. Two real boyfriends & One "thing" that lasted a long time. I know I seem like the girl who has a million boy toys but in all honesty,
1. When I like a guy, I really like the guy. So if you're the boy who claims that I flirt with a million boys and have a million boyfriends, stop being so jealous.
2. My heart is still mending from a break up that happened years ago.
3. I'm 19. & a girl. & single. I have a right to flirt.
4. My record is still shorter than Taylor Swifts. And she's famous...sooo....I think I'm doin' alright.

*Disclaimer* I have had four flings/potentials between and after the ex's I have previously listed but they didn't have as much as an impact on me as these three did. Sorry if ya'll feel left out.

Until next time,
xoxo